Sorry for my absence

Please forgive me for my extended break from blogging. This is not how I envisioned this blog when I began, but, as with most things worth doing, it is harder than it looks!

Life has been especially busy lately with both happy and difficult circumstances. I’ve had more work than usual, and my daughter has been sicker from the illnesses I mentioned in another post. I am hoping to get back to regular posting as soon as possible. I hope you can bear with me through this.

During my most recent therapy session, my therapist suggested the possibility that not every alter integrated when most of them did 11 years ago. If I had heard this a year ago, I would have been devastated, but I had begun to suspect that it might be the case. My hospitalization in August revealed hints that perhaps I still had parts holding onto information they had not previously been ready to share. 

Whether or not there are more parts still there doesn’t really matter to me. I know that I still have work to do, and I intend to do that work. The healing I have done so far has been so worth it, that I’m not willing to quit now. I have lots of living to do, and the healthier I am, the better I can take advantage of what’s to come.

It’s not that I’m not afraid. Therapy is scary and difficult, but I’m determined. I have children and grandchildren who motivate me. I want to be there, all there for them, and I will be!

 

 

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4 responses to “Sorry for my absence

  • Sliced Science

    I went back to read your previous post to understand more. Thank you for sharing about this–I don’t think it’s ever easy to share about therapy and recovery, and it’s very courageous of you to be so determined. Best wishes to your recovery, take care!

  • D.Anne Pierce

    Therapy can be scary but well worth the effort and pain. It’s like surgery…it’s never pleasant, but it brings healing afterwards. You are a person of great courage and you WILL find serenity!

    • Jessica

      You’re absolutely right, D.Anne, therapy is a bit like surgery without anesthetic, but the results are so worth it. Thank you for your good wishes. I do have serenity most of the time, however, there are times when the past creeps back and I’m overwhelmed. Getting back into therapy on a regular basis has been extremely beneficial. Thanks so much for your comment!

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